If you didn’t read the heal with me mini series, you probably won’t overstand why this hit the way it does. I was skeptical about posting this because I really don’t want the attention but I’m a creative and I needed a release. So... here ya go .. It wasn’t until my forehead touched the cold porcelain for the umphteenth time thst I realized ... I’m pregnant ! I shivered in shook and trembled in fear, I didn’t know what to expect but I was ready for it. I’d recently admitted that I did indeed want kids and it seemed like Spirit blessed me right away. But in 6 weeks time, it all was taken away. I was able to see you for the first time on January 28, 2020. I saw you. I knew you were inside of me but it’s true that it all changes when you actually see your baby. Ppl look at me funny when I say baby bc they swear you aren’t anything when you’re so new but to me, you were my baby. “Um.. I don’t see any blood flow inside the fetus.. and there’s no heartbeat. But sometimes 6 w